Saturday, March 22, 2003

Songs that I love so much right now...


Fields of Innocence
Evanescence

I still remember the world from the eyes of a child.
Slowly those feelings were clouded by what I know now.
Where has my heart gone?
And I'd even dream for the real world.
Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.

I still remember the sun always warm on my back.
Somehow it seems colder now.
Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger.
Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything.

Where has my heart gone?
And I'd even dream for the real world.
Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything.
Oh where, where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger.
Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything.

I still remember.


. . .


Present theme:

Unwell
Matchbox 20

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

. . .


Hopefully, I can go talk to Da about re-editing The Haven... got a design on hand...but that'll have to be on summer...

melina @ 8:45:00 PM )O(



Thursday, March 20, 2003

JC... here's the linkie to the pic of CP:

http://tvone.nzoom.com/programmes/mercypeak/story.html?story_cast.inc

I put my fate in your hands.Ü

melina @ 5:40:00 PM )O(


I will repeat it.

I am tired.

God. So many things are happening and personally, I have no idea what to do about it. The War has broken out in Iraq, heaven knows that the idea of people getting killed is depressing enough as it is. So many lives lost. Makes me sick to the stomach. Makes me wonder just how much bloodshed has to be done before someone actually steps in and says: stop!

To all those who know me in the US - I am sorry, but despite your president's good intentions, I can't find it in myself to see the logic in killing. So many lives lost. So much death. I forgot who said that but well... hm.

+ + +


Now... for the people I have to address.

I was very surprised to see just how many commented on my ShoutOuts, considering that... well, I never really thought anyone would comment. Let's face it. I just wanted to have a shot at defending myself and I didn't think it would matter that people would give their own two-cents worth.

To be truthful, I am very much flattered by the replies. Especially from this one.

So anyway, since these are due:

Maia:
Never have I felt the extreme need to stand up and rat my own mouth off. And I just want you to know that I did what I did because you mean so much to me. You didn't deserve what she did, and neither did Cy. So there. Now you see just how far I'd go for you both. *smiles* Tell your brother that I'm glad he's coming to the debut and that I await the time when I see him again. *laughs* Hopefully, this time we'll actually talk.

Remember, that boy's one of my 18 Symbolic Gifts, so... bahala na kayo (ed~ trans: I leave it up to you) to decide on what in the world you're giving me.


Marcelle:
Uh... thanks? *smiles* You know something. You're nice. ;p Heheheh... don't worry, hopefully things will go uphill from hereon. Take care, oki? You're already on my 'friends' list' and I hope that we could get to know each other a bit more.

Btw... what's 'Jabroni'? -- And yes, I do realize I have a way with words. ;p


Refe-chan:
Chère. *blushes* I seriously don't need the applause. But thanks... I think.

Don't worry, my heart's fine as it is... better that I spew the bullshit that constantly accumulates and let myself breathe. ;p Thanks for your concern. *quirks nose* Methinks I should visit your blog more often now. Damn school! Hectic as hell! ;p Take care.


Les:
Like what I told Refe, thanks for the concern. I appreciate it. ;p

And yes, I share your sentiments on the matter. Hopefully this ends here and now. Mahirap ngang magkaaway (ed~ trans: It's hard to have enemies...), and I don't want to add to the deterioration in my brain any more than DLSU is. Ich. Life talaga. Parang buhay. ;p

*laughs as she re-reads the shoutout* Don't worry cher, you won't have to worry about me getting mad. I rarely do--

REMY>> Which, as of late, petite, is not doing your health any good.

--*glares at her Muse* Shaddup Remy. I'll talk to you later.

Anyway, Les, your linkie is up. ;p sorry it took awhile, the computer back home was giving me utter hell. And...where was I? Oh yeah. You don't have to worry about me getting mad because I don't see the point of raising my voice in anger unless absolutely necessary. I do, on occassion rant, and rave and everything else in-between, but I don't like making enemies. Half the time, they do that for me, but I try to avoid doing it as much as possible. ;p


Eden:
Darling, forgive your oneechan, I haven't explained. In a nutshell: the girl insulted your Ate Maia without due reason, and therefore, I reacted in Maia's defense, as you know me to do. She insulted(?) me in turn, go view the ShoutOuts under the definition/explanation of my name and you'll see... but on the other hand, just read the entry I made the other day.

in whatever blog i hop onto to, i cannot seem to escape the anger in all its different forms manifested by each and everyone of you. if i may ask with your persmission, who is this girl ?! almost all the blogs have her on the net!!! i'd like to ask, neechan...freeze my claws and fight back? well... got mentioned again... please don't get angry with my brain...it's not working well...but in what instance did you see me do so? hehehe... memory is such a fleeting thing for me these days... and as for that girl this is what i would do if ever i were in your position.

*huggles Eden* Comfort, imouto! Don't worry, tempers are running high. Just let it be since most of this will eventually be resolved. 'freeze my claws and fight back'? Er... *blinks* Nani??? Anyway... I'm not going to get mad at you... heck! Why would I? Halata naman na perio na eh...;p (ed~ trans: it's pretty obvious it's yourt periodicals week...)

1. avoid face to face contact--->complications might and could occur due to which

I highly doubt that it'll come to that considering that she's likely to be all the way in the Visayas. Heheh... don't worry. I have no plan of meeting up with this girl ever.

2. i would pray for her. i would tell the Goddess to well guide her and stuff. i wouldn't want to do anything against her. i'd leave things to happen to her. if the Goddess wills whatever will happen to her may be it be good or bad, it's all for her own good. that's what i'm going to do. i'll pray for the rest of you guys as well.

Pray. Yes. Praying is good. ;p

3. chill. don't be too hot.

I will... since most of you seem to fear for my heart. Heheheh *grins* Don't worry kids, I have no plan of landing myself in the hospital most especially when I have so many things to do. I will however, ladn myself in the SSC canteen when I finish this. ;p Me hungry.

All in all Eden, I appreciate your comment. And I love you. Take care, hija.


Athens:
What can I say except 'I Love You' right back?

I'm glad that you think I did well. Particularly since I know that you detest any form of fighting unless absolutely necessary. Goddess of Wisdom indeed. *huggles*

Anyway, I recieved your e-mail and will forward the avatars (that's what they're called honey) to Isis and get a move on DE's blog. ;p Tell him I'm scanning for skins as of this moment.

Yuo take care. And oh, yeah, EMAIL me about the thing with Yukina. You shocked the basic hell out of me.


Hope:
*huggles* I can call you imouto now?

God! ;p Heheh... nice one-liner cher. Here's one for you: --> I love you. ;p


Meemee:
*laughs* Kid, you have no idea just how bad my temper can go... all the more since it's pretty rare. ;p

I'll repeat what I told Les - you don't have to worry about my temper turning on anyone else at the moment. That's just me releasing negative energy.

+ + +


Now that that's over... I will go off and edit my oniichan's bloggie since he claims that it doesn't show up on his server.

DE ~ I miss you already! I want my Spikey! *giggles like a silly schoolgirl* Gawd! I'm seriously rethinking my lay-outs... and yours as well. Heheh... Athena sent me a banner for your bloggie, might just edit it to become a button. Gah! MAIL ME! I so desperately miss you! ~*laughs* How's footie season coming around btw, and have you stalked and stuffed CP in a box for me? *sticks tongue out at DE* My birthday's coming up and you don't have a giftie for meeeeeeeeeeeeh!!!! *huggles*

Add to that the fact that I have edited my sidebar and have added linkies. you guys go see for yourselves. All the links are worthwhile and should be seen!!! GO! GO! ;p

Hope ~ I'll discuss the KULANDUNGAN revamping with you when I arrive at St. Scho. Muah!

And lastly - Where's my Beauty.be.Damned templates?! ;p

ciao mi bellas!
_________________
~Mel

melina @ 4:21:00 PM )O(



Wednesday, March 19, 2003

There is only SO MUCH that I can take.

So I will abandon all netiquette because the little bitch who's obviously courting a blog-war just pushed it past the blue line.

****** ***!!!

(i am editing my posts... it don't look good kasi. gah.)

. . .


Look. All things considered, I'd REALLY love to drop this stupid topic and move onto the next thing. Honestly! I have so many other things to concern myself about and I do not need this hanging over my head. Pweh.

So, for the sake of at least having my own little chance to defend myself, I will leave this one entry just for that:


Quoted from my ShoutOuts:

One, i don't NEED any attention and i wouldn't hell care if you think i do. You don't even know me. (that's one thing i agree on) That is why its so funny to see you get so worked up on all this shit.

Point 1 --> Okay. Good point. You don't need the attention and YES - I DO NOT know you. Hell. Thank the Goddess for small favors. At this point in time, you're definitely someone who wouldn't even be worth getting to know.

Point 2 --> Funny? You find this funny? Hah. Well, frankly - I do too. Because if you really didn't care about what we thought you wouldn't even bother coming down to my blog to comment. 'Freedom of speech' honey, I have that. Especially when you have to go around and bitch over one of my prime male friends and my sisters. And YES - at least we agree that this whole thing is absolute shit.

+ + +

Two, eli and i are completely different persons. And i wouldn't damn care if you like her or not. Like i said before, you haven't met.

Point Ma'am? -- I KNOW you're NOT the same person. GEEZ! Heh! But obviously, YOU felt the need to address that (I'm not stupid, cher, I can keep people's names straight.) so...what does that tell me? One word: T-H-I-N-K. Before you write.

+ + +

Another is the only reasoon i had your links was because i was told those were great blogs. Hey, no comment there... But it wasn't the blogs that bugged me, it wasn't the 'non-visiting' thing either that i was jealous of others having attention. God, i wouldn't care! I made a blog for my friends and i wouldn't mind if no one saw it. Its crap anyway, anyone can see that. But what DID cause me to say that is the fact that you ang your little groupies act like gods of the web.(or this little blog circle anyway) You gave advice, 'taught' the wittle fiction writers your techniques... Oh my god...

Thank you for pointing out that little tidbit. BUT - evidently, you're mind is as narrow as roughly three-centimeters.

We are writers. And the first thing about writers is that they gravitate to other writers. Merging of intellectual minds. But, as I can see at this point - you wouldn't know about that, would you?

You judge us so quickly, labelling us as 'gods' - *coughcough* GODDESSES - got it? WE are FEMALE. Sheeeeeeeeeeesh! Learn the propers terminologies kid.

And techniques are meant to be shared. If only to help people improve on their standard of writing. I was taught techniques - geez! My mentors range from the people I read, to the people who I meet in seminars, clubs and guilds. If you joined a writing seminar you would know that. But you don't. So I guess you're pretty much excused - though other people wouldn't - because that's flat, plain IGNORANCE.

+ + +

But I didn't mind it. Hey, i had nothing to do with it. Until you comfort people in the web. Okay, so you guys are being compassionate and stuff, but its so pathetic that it seems like you guys don't think people can go on on their own or something. I don't know, i can't explain it. But you guys sound so PLASTIC! All your "darling get this..." "darling, you should do that..."

GEEZ! How shallow do you percieve us to be?!

I wasn't going to address this, I was going to just let you go stew on your own - But THIS pissed me off!

I repeat: Who are you to judge how we address our friends online?! Hm?! DARLING is a term I use to address ALL my friends. From Isis - who I see on a regular basis, time permitting, to Mai, Kai and Lady H. I call all my FEMALE friends darling - and sometimes, even my guy friends. From my classmates to my teammates - NO ONE IS EXCLUDED from that endearment.

It is not that we think they can't do it on their own - HEAVEN FORBID I sometimes get irritated at people who refuse to help themselves! I give out advice because IRL, they ASKED FOR IT. they text me and it so happens that the only place that they can access my replies are online.

The internet is now my haven. It's an extension of my reality. My Mom checks my blogs because she and I barely get to talk with my schedule and life going haywire.

I don't exactly see all my babies (Eden, Hope, Nenloth, Alessa) because altough they ARE just two streets away and can be walked in roughly five minutes - all the things I have to do (and the red-tape over at Gate 1) don't allow me to visit them.

Then there's the fact that the phonelines are shot, considering that my parents have people to talk to. My brother uses it as well.

So where does that leave me?

The Net. The blogs.

Geez! Athena's all the war over in Aussie and, let's face it, e-mail's lousy on the time frame.

+ + +

Its so pathetically moronic!!! Childsplay. Drama. This ain't acting.

Who said we were acting? And doll - 'moronic'? Could you do us all the favor of looking at this situation critically because nobody's acting moronic here except maybe for you. Childsplay? -- *heheh* the Movie? -- Nevermind. Childsplay...? What does that term have to do with this?

Baka Child-ISH. Yeah... that would be more appropriate with the phrase. But nonetheless, wrong yet again. Is it childish to express who you are? How you are? What you are? I think not. Which is why, given another instance - and taking into mind thatin that instance you DID NOT insult my sisters and Refe-chan and Cyril, I would probably admire you for your spunk.

But as it is, the situation is this, and you did do what you did.

I can't admire you for that.

+ + +

If you really are all "polite" and "mature", i'd laugh my head off on a little comment like that.

And you are...? Mature? Yeah. Riiiiiiiiiiiiiight. If you had an OUNCE of maturity you wouldn't have started this by sending Maia a slap in the face.

We don't claim to be mature. We hope to get there, and we try to do our best.

Geez! I'm human too! I may call myself Goddess of the Sea from time to time but -GEEZ!- It's a farden NICKNAME! Why do you have to take everything we say and do so literally?! THINK. PLEASE! THINK!

Are YOU so g-r-e-a-t to judge who we are? To label us what you will? Puh-lease! You tell us not to act like we know you - which we don't - and here you are acting as if you know us! PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH. Geez! Here you go, acting all holier-than-thou by ranting insanely over people you haven't met, therefore cannot judge or label.

+ + +

God, so touchy... So you love your friends, i do too. But i don't barge in on their battles. It'd make them seem helpless. Sorry to say, just like you when you "fire up the whole world" Sheesh... You should hear yourself.

"The whole world will burn in hell becaus of my rage..." This isn't one of your fiction stories. "The dragon inside me will blah di blah..." Save your exercises when you wanna write. Farden...hah. Sounds funny too.


Yes kid. I hear myself - that's because I look through what I've written before I submit it.

I love my friends. Adore them and do what I can to be there for them. When I defended Eden a couple of weeks? Months? ago, I did it because she had confided in me several things. I stepped in because she gave me the thumbs-up for her S.O.S. Does that mean that she can't fight her own battles? Lord no! I've seen Eden fight. I've seen her freeze out people and/or bare her own claws.

Me waltzing in and having my little say doesn't mean I'm upstaging her on the battlefield. It's by request. When they ask, I come along.

That's what you call FRIENDSHIP. You don't leave them to fend for themselves when you can DO SOMETHING to help them out. But, as I can see, and as you have stated, you think that lending a hand is making someone weak.

God. I soooo pity you. Who taught you that? Hm? That when you help out friends it immediately equates to fighting their battles and making them weak?

It's a give-and-take situation, what with me being strong for my friends when they think they can't breathe... but I step back when I know - or when they tell me to, knowing fully that experience is the only way to learn. They do the same for me. And I thank them for it. It makes me a stronger person, to know that when I do take that ever-so-painful fall, there will be people who care.

Maia said it best when she stated that when the connection terminates, we still think about these people. I make it a point to remember them when I go offline. This goes out to the MD:TAS group, The Wednesday Gang, Hope, Nenloth, Eden, Alessa and the many others who are on my Social Blog-Hop. Even those who I haven't met I want to meet, I want to know. It's basic connection with these people that makes going on the internet a lot more personal than simply logging onto a computer and typing away.

And here you go saying that we sound so damn PLASTIC by doing what we can to relate to these people via the web?! How SHALLOW do you want to sound? Hm?

...

And regarding the fiction? Have you even READ my fiction? Pwede ba! Don't make ME laugh, hon. You sound like a broken record that's been on the player for too long. Irritating. And one that should definitely be thrown in the trash bin.

Fiction writing is OUR BUSINESS. And the way we write online is precisely the way we write in our fics because it's what you call PERSONAL STYLE. I write the way I talk because that's the best way to write. You can't write like Shakespeare unless you yourself love the man and know his style. At that point, you call it IMMITATION. Which, for some is the best form of flattery.

As a writer I'm still 'perfecting' my personal style - enough to make it even the slightest bit unique in it's own way. That's why I write the way I do. And FYI, this is a blog - and what do we do when we BLOG? Do we TALK? Do we SPEAK? NO! *feigns absolute horror* We... WRITE. And so, as you can see, your point just succeded in making you sound stupid.

. . .


I really didn't think that it would go as far as this. But let's face it. I'm opinionated enough to address this thing despite the fact that she's as thick as a brick wall and will like not listen to a word I've said. I also predict that she will leave a message in my ShoutOuts of her blog and try her best to prove her point yet again.

Honestly: I am tired. Talking to brick walls... siyet, nabobobo na ako. And I don't want to waste any more brain cells on this topic. It's too... STUPID, to even pay any more attention to. But I do realize that there are people who have to be addressed since they were also hurt by my... statement.

Eleezyienne :
I can not believe what you said to my friend. Sure, she had an outrage but if you really mean what you had commented, then you wouldn't have bothered to do that at all. Ok, so you were defending the pantheon, your friends, yourself, and to those other people who were in her list, but could you have done it nicer? Like what Maia-san did?

You're Harle's imouto...?

But to the topic. Yes, she did have a blow-out, and yes, I did comment. I won't apologize for the way that I am. I'd be comprimising my personal principles if I did.

Eleezyienne, I am not a person who keeps her anger inside. And I sure as hell don't watedr-down my words and feelings for the sake of propriety, particularly when people I care about were bombarded with insults.

I can't be like Maia, simply because she is Maia and I am Melina. Two different people, two different personalities and attitudes.

I COULD have done it nicer - I even thought it through, point is, when you get slapped once, it's okay, when they slap you again - without due reason, well... that's a completely different story.

To put simply, I don't take insults lightly - more so if they were thrown at my friends. You wanna fight me, go ahead, but when my darlings get caught, be prepared for a fight. If you read the top part of this entry, you'd see why.


You should have not hurled insults. One would do, and she'll get the point anyway.

Again, I would not have, and I will NEVER, ever tone down what I feel. I am an opinionated person, when we get the chance to meet face-to-face you'll see why. And I don't hurl insults unless they are due. And believe me, cher, they were. I take matters like this seriously.

Afterall, she's the one who judged us quick as *snaps fingers* that... without even giving us the benefit of a doubt. I did. It took awhile before I commented what I did on Maia's blog and on your friend's comment box.


Hate me, but I just don't want people to do that to my friend <---- eventhough if everyone thinks she's the most vile creature on earth. she's MY friend and I chose her to be my friend. And I'm hurt if people insult my friend. Corny noh? but it's true.

I understand what you're feeling, mainly because I, myself have been in situations like that.

I don't hate you. To be honest, I don't even hate her. I'm just bristling because she comes off and rats her mouth off the way she does sounding all 'holier-than-thou' as if her opinion was better than ours. She JUDGED us, called us things that we ARE NOT, and basically spat in our faces.

That is NOT the way you should approach people - even if you have something to say. I merely retaliated Elee (ed~~ What's your nickname? *sweatdrop*), and with just cause in my book. I don't do that to people. I don't react the way she did. She had no right to rat her mouth off like that at my friends. More so since Maia didn't ask for it. Neither did Cyril.

Geez! I don't even understand WHY IN FARDEN HELL cy got flung into this? Did he even DO SOMETHING to this girl? If so, enlighten me, and maybe I just MIGHT be in the wrong.


Well, guess this is all. I know I probably sounded like some dumb-ass a-hole but what the hell, that's who I am.

You're not dumb. And I don't begrudge you defending her. I'd do the same for any of my little sisters, or the Wed Gang, or ANY of my friends, for that matter. And I admire you for speaking up like this. Harle's in the good with you, and I'm happy to meet your acquaintance.

I do ask (if possible) that you speak to your friend though, and tell her that this whole thing WILL continue if she doesn't let up. But may, just maybe - she wants it to continue.

The Pantheon, and everyone else I know on my blog-list will back down and forget this whole fiasco Elee...but ONLY if the one who started it stops. We are very reasonable people. You know Harle, Mai and Ekai. You'd know that I'm telling you the truth.


I would like to know more about you though. And I hope you'd forget what she wrote.

I'd like to get to know you too.? I've heard a lot about you from Harle and well... here's my chance to acquaint myself with another person. ;p Can we trade linkies?

And I will not post any longer regarding this. I, like the rest of humanity, have the right to remain silent on matters that will be taken against me. (GAH! Too much Law & Order! MRF!) But I CANNOT permit myself to forget what she has done - to do that would be stupid.

The phrase 'Forgive and Forget', in my experience leads to people not learning from their mistakes. I cannot allow myself to walk away from this a clean slate. I'm sorry, but that's all I can give you. I can't forget. Right now I'm not even close to sounding forgiving, but then again, I can shut up. I hope you forgive the phrase, but "She's not worth my saliva".

PS: Did you compare her wth Eli? sheesh.

No. I did not compare her with Eli. I don't even know where that came from. I simply commented that even after the 'blog-wars' that erupted before I waltzed into the blog-scene, even after what I'd heard, I am presently evaluating how I find Eli for myself.

And she's nice. 'Nuff said.

. . .


The things we all go through. Ich.


melina @ 6:29:00 PM )O(



Monday, March 17, 2003

Freaky as farden hell...

Just got this off of Nizzy's Site and checked out three names that you all know well enough. Gah! It's pretty general information, but it basically sums up who I am...hm?

Melina Noelle Dauphin

Melina:
You want to be productive and feel useful, and enjoy helping solve problems. You like to be busy and not waste time. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life.

Noelle:
You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

Dauphin:
Your world, good or bad, revolves around your family. You are determined and loyal, and your word is your bond. You have a need to be up front. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature. You have a talent for working with people on a one to one basis. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr.

. . .

Melina Noelle Pilar

Melina:
You want to be productive and feel useful, and enjoy helping solve problems. You like to be busy and not waste time. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life.

Noelle:
You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

Pilar:
You don't fair well under inharmonious conditions. You are very peace loving. You can get very upset when you are frustrated. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You have a need to be up front. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions.

. . .

and my RL name...

Noelle:
You tend to be critical of yourself, not always expressing your true desires. You have an interest in health and health matters. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You must learn the lessons of self-worth; learn to love yourself before you can love others. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

Grace:
You strive for perfection and worry when things don't turn out just so. You enjoy doing a job well. You tend to procrastinate. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

Pico:
You don't fair well under inharmonious conditions. You are very peace loving. You can get very upset when you are frustrated. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You need to learn concentration and not to scatter your mental energies. You need to learn flexibility.









melina @ 11:18:00 PM )O(



Sunday, March 16, 2003

I am in the lab and will write a v. short snippet bacause I have to meet up with Isis at McDo.

Let me make one clarification.

I do not play the guitar. *wince* Hence the fact thatI am twapping Flip over the head.

I need a guitar-man. I need a frickin' band. I need... *sighs* I need a farden drink.

Yes, yes, I am savoring the tiny bits of vodka that I dumped in my system before dinner last night. *quirks nose* Too bad I never get hangovers. Mrf. Could have used teeny-tiny little men dancing around with wooden shoes in my head. Heh. But that's just me.

Oh-kay! -> New Links on the bloody sidebar, go see for yourselves:

Angstdroom - Les
Eightyeight Winds - *fabulous lay-out and it's on GEOCITIES xp* Bernadette

And will fix the linkies to my Blurty as well as update there as well.

When I have the bloody time, that is. xp

Me Out.

~Mel D.

INXS: DE... I will change the lay-out...and upgrade to version 2. I think the skin's the reason (to the problem) why it doesn't show.

melina @ 5:41:00 PM )O(



Melina Noelle Dauphin is 18 years of age born on the 18th of April 1985 at 9:25 am, on the cusp of Aries and Taurus.

She is a Wiccan by choice with Roman Catholic roots thanks to her parents and believes everything has a reason, and that fate does not equal coincidence.

She is surrently studying at De La Salle University and will be taking up Behavioral Sciences come 1st term, 2003.

Her great loves include her music, dancing, writing, reading, hockey, Tolkien, Dragonlance, the Mighty Ducks (both animated and the non-animated), and art in general.

She is known in various names such as Mel, Lina, Mia D (Devlin?), Noelle/Noey, Noei, Nyre, Lynne, Lillie, Noele, Nibblet...all depending on what fandom/ mood/ life/ timeframe/ universe she's in. (MPD anyone?)

She wishes she were part Irish, is desperately learning how to speak Gaelic (and Cajun) and dreams of setting foot in New Orleans in time for Mardi Gras, or on the shores of Ireland for Midsummer's Eve.

a_ghra | noelle6xliv7 | slapshot_n67
three_sisters_island | nyre_l
venus_on_a_moodswing

friendster | LJ | blurty

Haven | Beauty.be.Damned
Ramblings | Cheshire Cat

Blog Series
Autumn's Bounty


celtic birthday trees

Fanfiction.net as noelle-of-haven
Of the Four
this one i am currently re-editing and revamping under a new name. keep watch for updates!

FictionPress.net as Noelle Pico
Autumn's Bounty
episode two is finished! go see! go see! comments are welcome!

Under Glass

Hover By series
To Touch Grief

Snapshots of Silver Guitar
From Her Brother's Vantage Point

Shortshort Stories
Thoughts at 12:48am
Beach Day
Concert Night Dancing in the Dark

Essays
Pancakes
Backs

Wednesdays:
harle | sis | maia | kai | mac

Barkada Mayhem Daydream Sequences

My Boys:
flip | charliedoggie | ej-chan | kuya

My Kids:
nenloth | hope | marty | alessa | eli-chan | refe | adette

Confidantes:
athens | charliedoggie | mela | how

Community:
jackie | DE | les | voltz | nizzy | michelle | cheaca | meemee | fia | cyril | iketani | kala | boo | elee-chan | nemis | aice | jc-hime |

Websites
www.mdtas.com | dlsuhockey.cjb.net
www.worldoffround.com | CraigParker.net
DarkElementals.com | TenthPlanetArt.com | CommonRotation.com | Craig-Parker.Net | Craig Parker Exchange | Dragonlance.com | Fanfiction.net | Fictionpress.net | JustMango.com | Zodiacal Zephyr: ACROPHONOLOGY |

LOTR
RING*CON 2003
Character Quiz!
Elvish Name Generator
Guardian of Lorien
Legolas of Mirkwood
LordoftheRings.net
Stars and Flames
TheOneRing.net
Ultimate LOTR Galleries
White Arrows of Lorien

E-Groups
werevruwilgo | FaeryOracle
DLSU Hockey | Litera1no3

Fanlistings
Lord of the Rings
Guardian of Lorien- Haldir Appreciation




Mercy Peak


Harry Potter


Anne Rice: The Vampire Chronicles

{{MoRe On MeL}}

In the absence of a REAL lovelife, Mr. Bug holds the monopoly of my heart.^^

No Holds Barred
Noelle "Ielle" Pico

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status: vocalist/songwriter
"I love Amy Lee from Evanescence and admire her style in singing. Her voice is heartbreaking and it just gets to you. I'm not saying I want to be her, but to be able to sing as good as she can, and as honest as she can... that's enough."
- Ielle on her singing idols.

tracks: Foundation
Imperfection (Guinevere)
Give Me Freedom
Coffee and Nonesense

PERSONAL COMPOSITIONS:
Covenant Broken
One Last Storm
Sleep (Never Again)
One Step Forward (Two Steps Back)
Jump Into the Ocean
Romance
Resignation (instrumental)
Lost To Me (instrumental)
Martyr (NEW)
Pray With Me (NEW)

On Butterfly Wings
my earlier attempts at songwriting
Gotta Let Go
No Regrets
Were You Even There
Scents of Lavender
Fork in the Road

ON MY BOOKSHELF:
Book of Spells (II) - Marian Green
Between Blinks - Jim Paredes
The Vampire Chronicles - Anne Rice
Irish Jewels - Nora Roberts
Three Sisters Island - Nora Roberts

Wishlist 2003 (Christmas ed.)


BOOKS
The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle
Titania's Book of Hours - Titania Hardie
Enchanted - Titania Hardie
In the Circle - Elen Hawke
>>Note to: Doggieniichan

CDs
Celtic Emotions

Troika
Goddess
Faeries

Adeimus
Songs of Sanctuary
Dances of Time
The Eternal Knot

Leean Rimes - Twisted Angel

Tori Amos - Scarlet's Walk

Evanescence - Fallen

Santana - Shaman

SENS
~any album as long as it's theirs

i can't see tomorrow
(but with you it's okay)

the whole of the moon [celtic fayre]
one of these says [michelle branch]
breathe [michelle branch]
blame it on the weatherman [b*witched]
what can i do [the corrs]
a sorta fairytale [tori amos]
do what you have to do [sarah mclachlan]
unwell [matchbox20]
head over feet [alanis morissette]
colourblind [darius danesh]
why don't you & i [santana; alex band]
last goodbye [atomic kitten]

ielle's bracelet
swing swing [all american rejects]
teenaged dirtbag [wheatus]
going under [evanescence]
somewhere out there [our lady peace]
i think god can explain [splender]
tourniquet [evanescence]
system [qotd ost] bring me to life [evanescence]
imaginary [evanescence]
taking over me [evanescence]

dancing in the dark
baby boy [beyonce feat. sean paul]
shake yer tailfeather [nelly feat p. diddy/murphy lee]
thoia thiong [r. kelly]
ignition [r. kelly]
smooth [santana feat. rob thomas]

soundtrack collection
final fantasy: the spirits within
lotr: the fellowship of the ring
lotr: the two towers
treasure planet
queen of the damned
vision of escaflowne

dinner serenade (042103)
harana [parokya ni edgar]
stay [lisa loeb]
small two of pieces [xenogears ost]
runaway [the corrs]
hands clean [alanis morissette]
my immortal [evanescence]
wherever you will go [the calling]
for you [the calling]

of roses and rain

Me at the night of my debut.

butterfly kisses from dad
beautiful as you from kaka/tito toto
the prayer from neal
you've got a friend from flip
tender love from jomar
i wanna know from martin
all my life from ward
wonderful tonight from eivind
win from reiner/jen
eyes on me from dennis
truly,madly,deeply from ralph
perfect from how
always a woman from aids
when you say nothing at all from ej
wildflower from charlie
iris from alden
when you believe from mac
you gotta be from kuya

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