I have gone completely insane with regards to AB. Spent part of last night talking on the phone with Harle-cher figuring out what the heck to put in per episode in the whole of Season 1 (that amidst MF and CP discussions, my LOTR self-insert, her upcoming blog series and a load of other things that usually comprise our loooooong phonecalls).
What brought this up?
Simple.
I was writing down what I could yesterday for AB and I suddenly realized -- Oh Shit! -- I had episode 1, 2, and 3 basically pegged down -->but what about epidode 4?! Wai! Someone kick me now.
Man, this series is driving me considerably nutz, and I'm loving every bit of it... well, maybe except the part that I hardly have time (and also the resources) to update. Meef.
I wish I had my own computer. But then again, I wish for a lot of things that don't seem to be coming my way. Ich. But at least I've managed a bit of good news for myself. --> A 3.0 in my FILIPI2 class which is a pretty good grade particularly for the subject.
FILIPI1 doesn't count because the teacher back then was pretty much 'out-of-the-ordinary' and shifted between Tagalog and English in her speech. Besides, that last one was filled with groupwork and whatever else (I seem to be loving that term a lot these days) and she basically didn't have all that many quizzes.
My new teacher does tho (and yes, ma chere this is the same teacher who sent me into an uproar over that 'Harry Potter-->Wicca' fiasco in my dark blog about a month ago *checks dark blog for reference*) and surprisingly, I've been getting good grades under her class.
Mrf. Well, maybe it's the thought that I'll be breathing easy soon -- I hope -- that makes the hours I put in at the block not so long (why do I feel as if my grammar just flew out the window again? -- *sigh* -- ), and the minutes I put in with the WednesdayGroup (thesetwo included) all the better.
They've finally sorted out the internet mes here at the office... which is pretty okay anyway considering that i had ample time to write down whatevers for my LOTR self-insert fic.
*smiles* I just did the chalice scene and am damn proud of myself. *grins* Heheh... doll, i hope you DO forgive the teasing geared in your direction.
I will now go back to writing...and probably update A.B. *laughs* I still CAN-NOT believe that I've got fans for the series. Heheh... well then, I'm gone.
Why is it that people have the nasty habit of ruining the lives of my darlings?
God. I am starting to lose what good mood I had for the morning... if only because there are several things I want to address now.
*Note to the public: This will also be copied onto my dark blog.*
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DAMN IT ALL TO FARDEN HELL ISIS! What (the fuck) is THIS???
Ano nanaman ang pumasok sa utak mo at tinotopak ka nanaman?! (ed~ trans: what got into your mind this time and you're acting so screwy?!)
Who do I have to fuxing kill to get it through to your head NOT to go all depressed like this?!
By the GODDESS! What's gotten into you? You're not like this? Well, not to my knowledge anyway -- *blinks* SHIT.
M'eudail (ed~ trans gaelic: my darling; my treasure), why are you hitting yourself over and over again when you shouldn't even be thinking that way?
I swear. If I have to lay the fuxing law down yet again and earn your anger I WILL START keeping you away from the people who *obviously* set this trail of thought to move in a friggin' chain reaction in the first place!
And DOLL! DO NOT TELL ME that you are attending that LOUSY V-day date tonight? I know you said that you canceled everything except the one with Kale, but please -- PLEASE reassure me that you are not going to be the fuxing martyr and go to that thing with Soc just because you feel fuckin' obligated to go!
You, as my sister should know that it doesn't count if you're going at frickin' gunpoint to an affair that should be FUN.
Farden bloody, everlasting, shitty hell.
I am NOT going to stand by and watch all this happen.
NEXT
Mon chere... as I said in you comments box, you just say the word and I'll do what I can to inflict an incredible amount of pain to the two bastards who are obviously TOO STUPID to realize how much damage they're causing.
*swears loudly in every language she knows* TANG-I-NA. I swear Kai, papatayin ko na sila. *pauses* Well, maybe not kill them, but damn well make them suffer all the possible tortures that I can conjure up.
-->I know the RULE Harle. I know that the Rede disallows inflicting pain to others -- but by the God! I WILL disregard the Rede (just--this--once) and do everything short of ending their miserable little lives as payment for what misery they've caused Ekai.<--
To Hell and Hades with the Threefold Law -- I WILL accept the farden punishment if that's what penance I have to do for Kai's sake.
NODOBY HAS BLOODY THE RIGHT TO DO WHAT THEY'VE DONE TO HER -- TO ANYBODY.
Screw this.
NEXT
Kale. Pare, chill. It's okay to feel the slightest bit shitty. Right now, I'm thinking we all feel as shitty as that, considering that all hell is practically breaking loose on earth.
F~~~. I swear, I'm gonna need a farden massage by the time I'm done with this.
Back to YOU Sis. Look, cher, life's a fuxing bitch who needs to get laid yet again. And basically, all I have to tell you is THIS:
You don't want to go to cheering practice. Then don't. Screw the fact that I'm fucking B.I. right now (ed~ trans: Bad Influence.). what matters the most to me at this point is seeing you happy. Because at the moment I'm not. Fuck. Hell. Do you think MY farden life is okay m'love?
Okay: NEWSFLASH. I went into a fucking hysterical fit the other night and thankfully, I was still thinking coherently when I texted Mai.
Why oh, fuxingwhy didn't I text you?! Because, babydoll, at that lousy state of mind I didn't want to burden you with all the negatives that had been screwing with my entire system from the night me and Athens actually vented out whatever shit was still stored in the system. Athens about the fact that she feels more than a little alone over there in Aussie -- and me over the issue that was never resolved -- never fuxing closed -- until I finally got to scream, rant and tear my whole sanity to bitter shreds on the carpet.
You want to know just how much crap I've kept in so that I could finally get my sister back from the dead??!! YOu go and ASK Athens what graves I dug up. Graves, my love, you supplied to me back in the latter end of 4th-fucking-year! Graves the BOTH of you tossed in MY direction.
GOD!
I'm farden passed all that now, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I survive Sis, and it was the thought that a gap had formed betweeen You, and Me, and Her that's been killing me. Dagnabit! Can't you SEE just how it KILLS me that MY LIFE -- at fucking present -- is in absolute shambles and that the only things I live for now are Wednesdays and allofyouwhoaredeartomyownheart.
TAMA NA NGA!.
I am so sick of hearing youtwo feeling the goddamn hell sorry for yourselves when there's so much to celebrate in the world!
Dang it! There as friggin' war about to break loose, people died on a shuttle that landed wrong. Somebody very dear to me attempted suicide a couple of months back, is on friggin' medication, is seeing a bloody shrink who DOES NOT UNDERSTAND a farden thing. And where am I?
--Here. Stuck in the rut that is supposedly my home. Where another person who I would gladly give my life for is depressing herself with friends (excuse my sarcasm, please, but I am through with being nice) who DO NOT know *half* of her worth. Act the fucking hell as if sila lang ang may karapatan na samahan siya (ed~ trans: they are the only ones with the right to hang around her), and honestly make me want to puke my farden lungs out in complete disgust.
No one can force you to do what they want unless you allow them to force you to do what they want.
F***. I'm one of those. I am so SICK and TIRED of what HELL I happen to be stuck in every friggin' day I have to go to sit in a class who I no longer keep any love for.
Fuck this. I'm out.
I don't have any strength left in me. And I sure as hell will try not to let this bloody moronic thing destroy what started out to be a very hopeful V-day.
I dunno about the rest of you -- but loves, heads up -- it's Valentine's Day. And I mean a day to spend quality time with people you love.
Read: PEOPLE. not significant other/not boyf/not boytoy or whatever else you might want to call them.
PEOPLE. Your family, your friends -- those who matter. I believe that's how you termed the rest of us Isis.
*sighs* Darling, my own, angel-eyes. I'm not mad. I'm just tired. Can we all just get past this shit? Please? I got you back after a looooong summer of awkwardness and such. I am NOT going to allow Brenna and the rest to suffer another rift between us.
LYS, Isis. Always us. Remember?
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To the rest of you, I hope you forgive the sudden burst of negative emotion. I'm just tired.
I swear, if I start blubbering I will go ahead and kick myself
I got a letter from Athens today... and in all honesty, it makes up for all the misery that I thought I'd likely face on the morrow.
Ma chere... you have no idea how much your letter means to me. And the fact that well... I don't know if I'm speaking too soon, but I'm proud of how you're handling this... and how much you've (for lack of better term) 'turned' to add a little optimism in your life.
Cher, there is so much that I'd like to say, so much that I understand will be left unsaid, but I always pray that you will remember that I am here for you -- not to 'put up' with you, chere... but to be as good a friend as I can be.
You've done so much for me in the past that I just think it's time I be there for you. *shakes head* It's no miracle, cher, that I'm hanging around for you -- it's what is carefully termed as friendship... one that I let loose of for far too long because of unresolved issues.
*laughs* I guess that conversation on msn did more than just dig up the old graves...
I needed to vent mon ami... it's been stuck inside for too long that I didn't know what the f~~~ to do with it. But that's over now and that part of me is finally at peace. I wish you the best in everything to do.
-- Remember, just holler and call, if you wish. I will excuse myself from the classroom and talk to you if that's what you need.
And *psh* I detest you thinking that you're: 'Fucked up as it is anyway.'
Doll, we're only 'fucked up' if we think we are.
Besides, some ingrate of a moron used that term to describe a particular relationship and since then I've tried avoiding that particular phrase. -- But hey, whatever rings your bell, mi bella.
BELLA -- something of a term akin to beautiful.
Yes!YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! In your darkness you are, in your light, you are.
For we are all beautiful according to how those who love us see us.
Fia-petít and I see you that way... we both hope that is enough for you.
I am now officially insane.Ü *BIG GRIN* I am at the moment editing what there is of my blog series Autumn's Bounty and am v. happy with the comments that have been put up so far by the darlings who went and read.Ü heheh...
Add to that, I am hunting down piccies/avatars (special thanks to http://www.legomirk.com for those that I have put up so far) for the sidebar.Ü CAST LIST! CAST LIST! YES! The list is now growing by the minute! -->Though I'm trying to finalize the one I have now for good measure.<--
WAI! I've never felt this bouncy since...I dunno.Ü Let's just say that ::A:B:: is v. good therapy. MAI! We're fuxing addicted! And so is Charlie-girl!
*smacks forehead* YEEECH! I am officially insane. Gr...But anyway...here's a few things I want to announce.
*claps happily* -->this one has finally decided to join the lad of the living and blog...the most recent entry *grimaces* was made by me tho...but this lovable moron promised he'd try to update as frequently as possible. Go BRO!
I have an [LJ] and a [Blurty} now...and wai! *winces* I am going nutz trying to multi-task.
Everything else is on-hold for the meantime--what with my current obsession to AB on the roll. (*holds up notice* I AM UPDATING!!!)
Speaking of AB...Doggie? I need help creating pop-ups or whatever you call them. Will relay info soon. Mrf.
Put up Ej-chan's linky and the one for the RING*CON 2003. For all those who want to go drool over the two men goofing around on the stage in Germany...LOOK! -> LOOK! -> I put it up under OPEN PATHS. The first link on the list!
Woke up this morning with a song playing in my head.
*laughs* Funny thing is... this used to be one of my favorite songs (now one of my all-time favorite songs...Ü *winkwink*) back in 2nd year High School. So there.
*sighs* I know I'm supposed to be ranting my farden head off like I'm likely to do on my LJ and here, but the song puts me in too good a mood, and I'm currently high on whatever it is that I ate this morning.
*blinks* Sausages and rice. -->What's wrong with that? *mrew...*
Oh yeah!Ü Btw, I tweaked the whole system...and the darlings, Mela and How (friends of mine on the Hockey Team) have pursuaded me to get a Blurty of my own. I think I'll be hopping over there in awhile...havta check my e-mail first.
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I'LL BE OKAY Amanda Marshall - My Bestfriend's Wedding OST
It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
No more tears to cry
There's been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew
I want you to be happy
You're my best friend
But it's so hard to let you go now
All that could have been
I'll always have the memories
She'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to
[Chorus]
Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay
Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair
[Chorus]
I won't give up
I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin
[Chorus]
I can't hold on forever baby
I'll be okay
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Melina Noelle Dauphin is 18 years of age born on the 18th of April 1985 at 9:25 am, on the cusp of Aries and Taurus.
She is a Wiccan by choice with Roman Catholic roots thanks to her parents and believes everything has a reason, and that
fate does not equal coincidence.
She is surrently studying at De La Salle University and will be taking up Behavioral Sciences come 1st term, 2003.
Her great loves include her music, dancing, writing, reading, hockey, Tolkien, Dragonlance, the Mighty Ducks (both animated
and the non-animated), and art in general.
She is known in various names such as Mel, Lina, Mia D (Devlin?), Noelle/Noey, Noei, Nyre, Lynne, Lillie, Noele,
Nibblet...all depending on what fandom/ mood/ life/ timeframe/ universe she's in. (MPD anyone?)
She wishes she were part Irish, is desperately learning how to speak Gaelic (and Cajun) and dreams of setting foot in New Orleans
in time for Mardi Gras, or on the shores of Ireland for Midsummer's Eve.
In the absence of a REAL lovelife, Mr.Bugholds the monopoly of my heart.^^
No Holds Barred Noelle "Ielle" Pico
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status: vocalist/songwriter
"I love Amy Lee from Evanescence and admire her style in singing. Her voice is heartbreaking
and it just gets to you. I'm not saying I want to be her, but
to be able to sing as good as she can, and as honest as she can... that's enough."
- Ielle on her singing idols.
tracks:
Foundation
Imperfection (Guinevere)
Give Me Freedom
Coffee and Nonesense
PERSONAL COMPOSITIONS:
Covenant Broken
One Last Storm
Sleep (Never Again)
One Step Forward (Two Steps Back)
Jump Into the Ocean
Romance
Resignation (instrumental)
Lost To Me (instrumental)
Martyr (NEW)
Pray With Me (NEW)
On Butterfly Wings my earlier attempts at songwriting
Gotta Let Go
No Regrets
Were You Even There
Scents of Lavender
Fork in the Road
ON MY BOOKSHELF: Book of Spells (II) - Marian Green Between Blinks - Jim Paredes The Vampire Chronicles - Anne Rice Irish Jewels - Nora Roberts Three Sisters Island - Nora Roberts
Wishlist 2003 (Christmas ed.)
BOOKS The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle Titania's Book of Hours - Titania Hardie Enchanted - Titania Hardie In the Circle - Elen Hawke
>>Note to: Doggieniichan
CDs Celtic Emotions
Troika Goddess Faeries
Adeimus Songs of Sanctuary Dances of Time The Eternal Knot
i can't see tomorrow
(but with you it's okay)
the whole of the moon [celtic fayre]
one of these says [michelle branch]
breathe [michelle branch]
blame it on the weatherman [b*witched]
what can i do [the corrs]
a sorta fairytale [tori amos]
do what you have to do [sarah mclachlan]
unwell [matchbox20]
head over feet [alanis morissette]
colourblind [darius danesh]
why don't you & i [santana; alex band]
last goodbye [atomic kitten]
ielle's bracelet
swing swing [all american rejects]
teenaged dirtbag [wheatus]
going under [evanescence]
somewhere out there [our lady peace]
i think god can explain [splender]
tourniquet [evanescence]
system [qotd ost]
bring me to life [evanescence]
imaginary [evanescence]
taking over me [evanescence]
dancing in the dark
baby boy [beyonce feat. sean paul]
shake yer tailfeather [nelly feat p. diddy/murphy lee]
thoia thiong [r. kelly]
ignition [r. kelly]
smooth [santana feat. rob thomas]
soundtrack collection
final fantasy: the spirits within
lotr: the fellowship of the ring
lotr: the two towers
treasure planet
queen of the damned
vision of escaflowne
dinner serenade (042103)
harana [parokya ni edgar]
stay [lisa loeb]
small two of pieces [xenogears ost]
runaway [the corrs]
hands clean [alanis morissette]
my immortal [evanescence]
wherever you will go [the calling]
for you [the calling]
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Special thanks to Meemee for providing Maia the
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