things are going insane. too insane for my own comfort. *sighs* there' trouble brewing with ma chère and it hurts me to know that there's techinically NOTHING that i can do to alleviate whatever pain and suffering the whole goddamn fiasco is putting her thru.
it's insane. and it's farden unfair...*wince*. waitasec...this should go here. but then again...i'll just copy and paste. ich.
chère, you've probably read what i've dumped inyour comment box...the novela that it was cut down by half of it's original and to be edited with text language for the sake of fitting all that i wanted to say to you.
darling...it's the friggin' month. the goddamn, stupid idea that it's february and we are...*sighs* single...and that Hallmark dictates that we should at least have *someone* this coming fourteenth. *shakes head and snorts* geez. where'd that moronic idea come from? isn't it s'posed to be that the 14th is the feast day of a Catholic saint? Where'd all the hearts and red balloons and ideas of special dates come along? my GOD!
--oh shit. i'm becoming cynical.
i'm really...really sorry...my temper's on the fritz again and i don't know how the hell i'm supposed to control it with this stupid hysterical fit due sometime soon. *sighs*
i don't know about the restofyou...but i honestly want to see ma chère with this guy. i look at them and i see something that's *worth*while. this coming from the girl who prefers now the fact of settling down in the sidelines rather than going in the line of fire.
*shakes her head* maybe i'm too hung up on the books...maybe i'm going frickin' insane, but i at LEAST have to have to believe that somewhere, *some*-frickin'-how...two of my most adored friends will actually find something close to happiness! i mean, LOOK-AT-THEM...they...m e s h. they fit. they look good together. when they talk they meet each other on the level of FRIENDS. they fuxing communicate.
to me...they're Zack and Nell...two people that should be together. Two people who i hope the most for.
She's NEVER felt like this...but She knows that she'd to everything to treat HIM right. And i have no doubt that he'll treat her equally.
*goes to sit in a corner* oh, i don't know...
You'll probably reprimand me for meddling...afterall...why can't i just leave it alone and let it be? right? well, sis, i can't. i introduced these two...i was the one who got them together and i saw all of this coming...i just didn't know how far it would go.
And YOU probably think: 'what's the use anyway?' He's had his share of heartaches...she's probably as naive as i was when i first fell inlove without someone...and yet again with the moron...why meddle when i know how bad things can get even if both sides want to work things out?
By the Goddess.
I'm sorry...i have no right to get mad at the two of you...it's probably because the two of you were there...and weren't there when things got...bad. That's no excuse...no matter how many times i try to analyze it to bits.
Besides...we're talking about Charlie-cher...not me...her situation, not the hell and fire i went through. the hell and fire that's as cold as ice now.
*sighs* Athena...maybe you *are* right when you say that sometimes love can die... but then...memories don't. They never do and never will...they outlive us all...
Maybe that's why I want these two together...so that if things work out i can just sit back and smile and think...
'Here it is...the thing I believed in.' and I'll sigh and play my song on the ivory keys and think:
i have found a new anime (okay! so it's not *new* per se...it's new to me anyway, since i stopped watching anime for a really loooong time...) that suits my immediate fancy.Ü and yes! it includes quiet, dark and brooding men! argh! and the cute ones who have delightfully blue eyes.Ü
*groans and turns away from te computer* yes, i realize that i am going completely overboard with the thing on craig.
anyway...i'm talking to 'fia on msn messenger...yes, the same sofia 'thena-sama talks about briefly in her last blog entry.
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*after some time*
by the goddess...*frowns* what the girl has been relaying to me is incredibly disturbing...mrf. i wish i could do something to help but it looks like i'm put in my place for the moment and can't interfere. it eats at me though...that someone as young as her has to go through what she's going through now. and i'm only relaying to you what little i've gathered.
she deserves better...*frowns in athena's direction* the kid's going through hell, cher, and all the rest of us can do is probably stand aside and wait for *soemthing* to ultimately happen. ich.
hit me over the head for acting the mother-hen. i can't help it. she falls under the category of imouto-tachi... and right now i want her to be happy as well,.
*sniffles* i miss my babies dammit!
nenloth is leaving in march--i just saw veron today outside of lasalle and i've yet to lay my eyes on jackie and jena! argh!
*pauses and thinks* ...speaking of my darling veron...am going to go rant on beauty.be.damned now over a little know it all chit who needs a tongue-lashing.
i will explain the insanity of it all to you when i finally sort it out myself.
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i am at the computer lab on the third floor...and kitty* is currently sitting to my right...browsing through her email. hmmm...tintin's further to her right and jc-chan still further on.
i'm waiting for my other blockmate to send me and SMS (xp yes cher, your terms seem to be catching.? when we have to go up and meet with the people at COSCA for our outreach activity this saturday...er...tomorrow. but at *least* the whole thing about the transportation has been sorted out and i'll just have to run it by dad tonight...that is...*if* we're going to the place with approval from the COSCA.
mrf.
anyway...after that, however, i have to rush all the way back to this building (yes, CBE has *lovely* stairs), to head over for my guidance couseling session. --no 'thena, i am NOt in trouble for anything. meepmeep. they just want a little chat with me regarding WHY i plan on shifting, yadda, yadda, yadda. mrf. isn't it pretty obvious? I AM DYING in my present course!
anyway...*still* after that, I have to go up to the Sports COmplex if I intend to *finally* give the book. gr...what book? the copy of my eversowonderful (and equally frustrating) Green Book. argh. i will further explain when i actually have the patience to do so.
and i have to scramble back to INTROSO because i don't want to miss another class...i'm going steadily on four and i want to keep it that way. gr. besides...it's at that time that i believe i will be able to review for BIOLOGY. ich. tests, tests, tests...why???
anyway...i've finally found a decent computer that actually *shows* the pictures...ich. so...happy day!Ü besides--i am semi-downloading the .avi file of Craig in Mercy Peak...*quietly swoons* mrf...it actually makes me feel better as compared to what just transpired.
if you want to know...go here. ich. i just hope a certain boi doesn't see it...ich. me and my darker side...gr.
anyway...i browsed thru maia's blog and went over to view voltz's site...and there was this quiz and i just *couldn't* resist!
Undirected Creative Force. Open, receptive, devoid of pre-conceived notions. Beginnings.
A young man holding the white rose of innocence in his left hand and grasping a vagabond's staff and satchel in the other, wanders with his gaze to the heaves, about to step into and abyss. His is the transformative journey of the spirit from innocence through experience into wisdom. his guardian and friend is the white dog symbolizing his own puppylike trust and fiath, for which the world labels him The Fool.
I am? *psh* well...maybe sometimes...i'm a hopeless dreamer! so sue me mon ami! i'm officially insane!
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anyway...Ü 'thena-sama!!! thank you SOOOOO much!Ü heheh-->she just sent me this piccie:
*glares* oh...shuddup! i'm NOT paying any attention to that man!
REMY>> he's a man...? *snicker* *snicker* you sure petít? he seems to stress too much on craig's...*ahem* that i'm having serious doubts about your wonderful D.E.Ü
oh... go stick your head in the sand.
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yes...ma chère, you may go and stick it up on your blog.Ü i'll give you the link in awhile...Ü heheh...adorable, aren't they? --makes me want to kill Peter for cutting out Mark's scene--y'know...the one where they *charge* in the exceprt for the Last Alliance.Ü heheheh... but anyway...for now i must depart. have computer class and a farden quiz to boot! ich! i'm rebelling again...but what else is new?
my blog is going completely insane...it won't show up on the confounded computer...though the rest seem to be doing just fine...ich.
i've had people look over my shoulder for the past...i dunno...curios as to why i'm so hooked on the net lately. xp well, well, well...isn't *that* comfy.
*glowers* i call forth the vampire dominatrix--my infinite hentai goddess MAIA to mutilate your pathetic little form!
*blinks and whimpers* MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIAAAAAAAAAA!!! I CANNOT believe it! I WILL NOT BELIEVE. IT! NOOOOOOOOOO!!! it cannot be! HE IS *MINE*! goddamnit! the MAN cannot be liek that!
*whispers her personal litany* he-is-not-gay!-he-is-not-gay! *promptly faints on the floor*
Mrf! *sticks out tongue at her muse* Any-way...Mai-cher's tweaking the group blog...for Daydream Sequences *swoons* and am going thoroughly insane over the fact that it looks fabulous!Ü heheh...
Yes...I am completely insane...add to that the fact that i've finally finished Maia's little (REMY>> ~ LITTLE?!) smut awhile ago.
I've also managed to set my counseling appointment with the guidance counselor this friday at around 10:30-11:00 am. xp just my considerable luck that the guy has to be Ilonggo. Wow. Talk about wierd.
Now...I know you in particular will semi freak-out Niichan...hmph...but there wasn't any other slot available for the female guidance counselors. heh. and besides...it's the one really assigned to BMG (my course) so I guess he's pretty okay where the students are concerned. xp
THENA-SAMA! I've fixed your blog...*growls* damn you...i like the template.ich. although it *will* need tweaking somewhere in the middle. xp don't worry...i'll manage to figure it out. now GO! xp read niichan's blog...he's being a moron. *gins* a particularly lovable moron for all his twisted humor.
REMY>> *warped* cher, very, very warped.
like mai? *beams* those two should talk.
REMY>> *dry laugh* suuuuuuuuure, mon petit cherie...put the two most twisted people in your life together and we'll have a seisun to boot! *shakes head* you are insane.
i know...*grins* isn't it wonderful? heheh...love you mi bellas!
*growls* *a-ahem!* fyi...people...i happen to be the darker type. xp allen's cute, all-obvious handsomeness serves me no thrill.
to quote my darling niichan, D.E: 'your type would be the dark and dangerous, the dark and brooding, the cold and brooding, or simply serious.'
ich...and *where* has that gotten me, D? xp you *know* all about my romantic exploits and though...ich...trust me...my sweet [darien] was possibly the only exception since he and i seem to be getting along just fine and dandy nowadays. with regards to that...*that*...*sputters* person...the moron had the gall to speak to me this morning during my FILIPI class...
Your score is
23/50
what does that mean?
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical.
They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest...
Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but
someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and
who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get
to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your
friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over
it if that trust is ever broken.
hm...very perceptive this quiz, eh, mes amis? *laughs* well...it's right anyway so i know i can at least trust *a few* quizzes on the net?
anyway...methinks blogger is going haywire yet again...and i have a DOZEN things to look into today--like my counselor for one. mich. *makes a face* i have to set counseling appointments since i'm shifting. gr. hope everything goes well...*sighs* at LEAST i'll get to see the wholewonderful,adorablegang this wednesday...ich. YES mai...Ü your fic is underway...Ü and woman! is. it. HOT.
man...you...and orli...and *fans self* hah!Ü heheheh...just a token of my undying appreciation for SHADES of BORACAY.Ü yes..that is now the official title.Ü
I WUV YOU DARLING! -->now go whip my niichan for trying to break my heart.Ü heheh...and uh...HELP? my archives remain lost in the abyss of the net.
yes niichan...you are going to die sometime very soon...
REMY>> good GOD man! you did have to tempt her into looking at that farden page! *flings arms up in frustration* and YOU--my darling little writer just HAD TO LOOK!
*winces* i'm sorry...? *buries her face in her hands* GOD! MAIA!!! GIVE ANOTHER GODDAMN SMUT TO WIPE OUT THE HORRIBLE IMAGE FROM MY MIND! *begins a soft litany proclaiming that 'it's only a fic...it's only a fuxing fic...'*
REMY>> *looks pointedly at Dominic* damn it all to hell and back you've traumatized her!
i think...i will chop off niichan's incredibly wonderful head.
ma chère ...i couldn't find what you meant about craig m'eudail (~ gaelic: my darling ... hmph!) the # 6? i went to the site but...ich...fine...i'll look through the darned thing again. xp
anyway...i snagged a quiz off your blog and this is what i got:
heheh...yeah...you prolly know already that i adore you to bits despite the fact that you seem to veer away from knowing *why* i am now officiall inlove with c. parker.Ü go check your e-mail D!Ü i'm forwarding the lovely little smut (~ lemon, if you wish) my darling maia did for me. heheheh...we're *repressed* spike.Ü we're thoroughly repressed. damnit i need my man!
*wince* oh...kay. that sounded so wrong.Ü xp
anyway...can you find me piccie of Dawn?Ü flip insists that i could *never* be as adorable as that girl...but point of view is relative and i leave you to judge that facet of me.Ü heheheh...
and cher you can't get ANY more dangerous than you are now.
love you niichan! always remember that-->now VAMOOSE! and hunt me down Craig (throw in Mark while you're at it...for Charlie-cher's sake.Ü)
Melina Noelle Dauphin is 18 years of age born on the 18th of April 1985 at 9:25 am, on the cusp of Aries and Taurus.
She is a Wiccan by choice with Roman Catholic roots thanks to her parents and believes everything has a reason, and that
fate does not equal coincidence.
She is surrently studying at De La Salle University and will be taking up Behavioral Sciences come 1st term, 2003.
Her great loves include her music, dancing, writing, reading, hockey, Tolkien, Dragonlance, the Mighty Ducks (both animated
and the non-animated), and art in general.
She is known in various names such as Mel, Lina, Mia D (Devlin?), Noelle/Noey, Noei, Nyre, Lynne, Lillie, Noele,
Nibblet...all depending on what fandom/ mood/ life/ timeframe/ universe she's in. (MPD anyone?)
She wishes she were part Irish, is desperately learning how to speak Gaelic (and Cajun) and dreams of setting foot in New Orleans
in time for Mardi Gras, or on the shores of Ireland for Midsummer's Eve.
In the absence of a REAL lovelife, Mr.Bugholds the monopoly of my heart.^^
No Holds Barred Noelle "Ielle" Pico
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status: vocalist/songwriter
"I love Amy Lee from Evanescence and admire her style in singing. Her voice is heartbreaking
and it just gets to you. I'm not saying I want to be her, but
to be able to sing as good as she can, and as honest as she can... that's enough."
- Ielle on her singing idols.
tracks:
Foundation
Imperfection (Guinevere)
Give Me Freedom
Coffee and Nonesense
PERSONAL COMPOSITIONS:
Covenant Broken
One Last Storm
Sleep (Never Again)
One Step Forward (Two Steps Back)
Jump Into the Ocean
Romance
Resignation (instrumental)
Lost To Me (instrumental)
Martyr (NEW)
Pray With Me (NEW)
On Butterfly Wings my earlier attempts at songwriting
Gotta Let Go
No Regrets
Were You Even There
Scents of Lavender
Fork in the Road
ON MY BOOKSHELF: Book of Spells (II) - Marian Green Between Blinks - Jim Paredes The Vampire Chronicles - Anne Rice Irish Jewels - Nora Roberts Three Sisters Island - Nora Roberts
Wishlist 2003 (Christmas ed.)
BOOKS The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle Titania's Book of Hours - Titania Hardie Enchanted - Titania Hardie In the Circle - Elen Hawke
>>Note to: Doggieniichan
CDs Celtic Emotions
Troika Goddess Faeries
Adeimus Songs of Sanctuary Dances of Time The Eternal Knot
i can't see tomorrow
(but with you it's okay)
the whole of the moon [celtic fayre]
one of these says [michelle branch]
breathe [michelle branch]
blame it on the weatherman [b*witched]
what can i do [the corrs]
a sorta fairytale [tori amos]
do what you have to do [sarah mclachlan]
unwell [matchbox20]
head over feet [alanis morissette]
colourblind [darius danesh]
why don't you & i [santana; alex band]
last goodbye [atomic kitten]
ielle's bracelet
swing swing [all american rejects]
teenaged dirtbag [wheatus]
going under [evanescence]
somewhere out there [our lady peace]
i think god can explain [splender]
tourniquet [evanescence]
system [qotd ost]
bring me to life [evanescence]
imaginary [evanescence]
taking over me [evanescence]
dancing in the dark
baby boy [beyonce feat. sean paul]
shake yer tailfeather [nelly feat p. diddy/murphy lee]
thoia thiong [r. kelly]
ignition [r. kelly]
smooth [santana feat. rob thomas]
soundtrack collection
final fantasy: the spirits within
lotr: the fellowship of the ring
lotr: the two towers
treasure planet
queen of the damned
vision of escaflowne
dinner serenade (042103)
harana [parokya ni edgar]
stay [lisa loeb]
small two of pieces [xenogears ost]
runaway [the corrs]
hands clean [alanis morissette]
my immortal [evanescence]
wherever you will go [the calling]
for you [the calling]
Template was designed by Melina Dauphin
and encoded by Maia D.
Special thanks to Meemee for providing Maia the
necessary tutorials for CSS.
The images on this blog are mine, taken from
my computer. The moving pentagram - I do not remember where I found, but if you made this, feel free to
email me so I can give you due credit.
The faeries by Brian Froud are scanned from my own Faerie Oracle deck. These are not my works of art, and I scanned
the images only for my personal use.
